Today, I contacted a couple of cello players since recording time is coming up soon. I composed some of the cello parts for ‘Wreckage’, and wrote some harmony for the pre-chorus, and a really cool (upbeat) riff for the chorus.
But it didn’t come that easy; it was the all so familiar 45min to 1h of agonizing nothingness and constant doubting if anything good is going to come out of the session. I forced myself to sit there for the work to come. I call it ‘work’ because for a split moment, an overwhelming sensation of just getting up and calling it a day creeps up on me. I didn’t want to be there, nothing good was coming out of my effort and it just wasn’t fun.
But from experience, I know what it is at this precise moment, when I find the courage to go over the hump, is what is needed to get me to the level where I can find something exciting.
I have in the past not been able to control the urge of getting up and leaving. But over time I have learned that the creative process works in layers: the longer you stay in it, the deeper you dive, the more interesting creations will emerge. Of course, this assumes that you have the courage to experiment and let go of the intellect.
Music and creativity need your body space to breathe; you cannot think intellectually, one has to let go of the intellect and just get into feeling the song.